Owning it.

The first step in many things is acceptance. You have to own your experiences, good or bad. You have to admit to things if you ever really want to heal and be at peace. 

Stop being afraid to admit that things went wrong.

Admit that you were hurt, admit that they broke you and made you weak. Say it loud and proud.

Don't hide behind your pain and suffering, own it.

Own up to the fact that is it not solely their fault.

Admit that you allowed things to happen and that despite certain signs, you never realized that they weren't good for you.

It's okay to admit that you didn't realize your self worth until you were no longer in the situation.

Admit that now you are so much better without them.

Understand that every single thing is a lesson and in the end,

you are now a stronger, better person.

Unfortunately my parents didn’t stay together. 

But I think the lack of genuine love witnessed, made me crave it more as a young adult. 

I think that’s what fucks me up.. 

I have no clue what true love looks like so I end up settling for less trying to create it.

Sharing your story..

I've been with multiple people who "catch feelings" or think that every s i n g l e thing I have ever written about relates to them. It usually begins with "Is that post about me..!?"

No one ever wants to be spoken about in a bad way, but it will happen regardless. However, once someone does something to you, it becomes yours, so why not OWN IT. Example; you were in a relationship where someone cheated and now you want to write a story about it. The person you're writing about may get upset but honestly what does that matter!? THEY ALREADY CHEATED, it should be obvious that they didn't care about your feelings plus how you choose to express your feelings, is your choice.

Now.. I understand that not every thing needs to be written and shared but thats exactly my point. If someone who treated me badly comes across any of my post, their first thought shouldn't be "wow, she's so hurt, she wrote all of this about me." haha. Because I can guarantee you that its most likely not even about you. I want you to actually read my work and say "wow, she's a great writer and yeah she's been hurt but she turned her pain into power."

Moral of this rant is: Don't ever be afraid to share your story, whether it be good or bad. Our experiences in life make us who we are. Each one of us has our own journey and we have to figure this thing called life out all by ourselves. However, you never know how sharing your story with someone can change their life. Don't be ashamed of your failures, your bad relationships, ugly pictures from the past..

 Let them push you forward;

and 

let you be the best person you could be!

Potential//

There's a quote that goes "I've got a bad habit of becoming infatuated with someone's potential, I become so intrigued by what they initially show me.. that I begin to imagine and visualize the greatness that could come from them. Never once stopping to think that sometimes, people don't live up to their potential".

\The other day I was talking to someone and I mentioned how this happens to me a lot and she also said she could relate as well so I wanted to write more about this.

Potential defined as an adjective is: having or showing the capacity to become or develop into something in the future.
And as a noun it is: latent qualities or abilities that may be developed and lead to future success or usefulness.
  
It's crazy how when we meet someone and as they begin to show us who they are, we can easily become infatuated with what we are shown but that doesn't necessarily mean that is who they are. You know when you have to go to an interview, depending on the location, you dress accordingly.. People do the same when they decide what to show us. We find out things and we automatically fantasize how everything will play out. We begin to plan ahead after only knowing the parts of us that they choose to show us, and based on that, unrealistically, they seem to be perfect.. 

You want so bad for that person to be who you visualize them to be but sometimes it just wont happen. It may happen and you might be one of the lucky one's.. but it might not.. We try rush ahead and create this person in our head who doesn't really exist in real life.. I mean, yeah they exist in some aspect but they don't always live up to the potential we have set for them.

And yes it sucks, it sucks when you see potential in someone and they don't live up to it. But that has nothing to do with YOU. You can't make someone reach their full potential. And your expected potential of them may not necessarily be the same as there's. As humans, there is only so much we can do to aide someone's growth. We can't make them into the person we want them to, it either happens or it doesn't.